Money sucks.
I'm sitting here taking a break from desperately scrabbling for scholarships, listening to "Bomb" by one of my favorite bands, Switchfoot. They have this line "With blankness staring back at me/Screaming from the pages/I feel the fear of apathy/Gripping me, pushing me/On top of everything." That's me right now.
I fear that I don't care and if I don't care, that's bad.
I have to care.
Oh, but I don't want to.
There's so many things so many people don't want to do. Finance and paper work are on the top of my list. It's just, blehaaw. You know?
Anyway, I just needed a break and to write this so I can kick my butt in gear and get crackin' at these scholarships I should have done back in December... But that's in the past. Huh, that's kinda funny. I am now listening to another of Switchfoot's songs, "This is Home," and I just heard a line "But I can't go back/Back to how it was/I believe you now/I've come too far/No, I can't go back/Back to how it was." Oh, irony.
Well, back to my scholarship search and goldfish crackers. I just need to stay away from apathy and get going. Wish me luck. I'll need it. :\
Oh, and to whomever actually reads this: don't eat yellow snow.
